bahut kuch btana chahta hu

Meri baaton se tjhe parhej sa ho gya,
mjhse tjhe gurez sa ho gya,
rangrez mere tu jaane kon sa rang ghol gya,
mere band khyaalon ko dekh tu khol gya.
rukh mod gya,
tod gya,
kabhi jeeta saka na tjhse mai,
dekh mai haar gya,
khud se, khuda se jawaab mai maangta chla gya.
har khawahish teri poori karne ki chah meri,
jeena usme ho,
jisme,
ho chaanv teri.
tanhai si meri saanso mei samayi hai,
har lamha har pal,
bas teri yaad aai hai.
beetey jo lamhe vo chuninda the,
logo ki baatien tere liye,
kadi ninda thi,
vo bolte kuch or dikhte kuch or hain ,
mjhse nahi kaha jata,
tere dost saare chor hain,
jinke liye tune mjhe chhodh diya,
meri emotions ka gala ghot diya,
chal theek hai khush rehna tu,
teri zindagi teri hi ye life hai,
tune dost jo bnaaye chalte firte knife hain.
teri har aadat mjhe maaloom hai,
100 calls pe ek reply tera,
bahut khalta hai,
baat ho jaaye tjhse meri,
to ye 100 calls ka ocean bhi,
chota lagta hai.
...
jaisa bhi hai, chal...
mjhe qubool hai,
shayad tere saath hi zindagi ka fitoor hai,
maqbool hai teri har raza,
tera hokar bhi na hona,
ye bhi to hai ek saza,
par dosh kya hai mera,
ki mjhe teri thi parwaah ,
par usme bhi dard diya tune,
par di na ek single wajah.
tere hone na hone ka gam hai jo jaata nahi,
dekhna tjhko mai chahta hu,
par chahta nahi,
ki tu fir se meri wajah se irritate ho,
suffocate ho,
demotivate ho,
...
mai tera sardard nahi,
khushi ki wajah banna chahta hu,
ki mjhe dekhe tu or khush ho jaae,
apne saae gamo ko bhool jaae,
haaru mai tjhse har baar,
aisa kuch ho jaae,
mere hone ya na hone ka tjhko asar pad jaae.
tabhi dekh itni lambi kahanaiyan bnata hu,
itni saari baaatien tjhe btana chahta hu.